Physical Edition of Faith in Doubt is finally up and available; time to discuss differences between the Physical and Kindle editions

Note: I’ve added Faith in Doubt to MatchBook Pricing, so if you buy the physical copy then you should be able to purchase the Kindle edition at the discounted price of $2.99.

Update: After getting the proof copy in the mail, I decided that the gray cover design was an idiotic decision on my part (likely due to the desperation I had underwent hoping to finally release the book after so many years of working on it) and I’ve changed it to be a complete dark color instead out of my own sense of fun. 

With the physical edition finally being made available after jumping through a few hurdles, I’d like to take the time to explain the major differences. The books are 99% identical, but there’s a reason for the pricing differences, spacing differences, and the shorter Preface in the physical edition.

The second-half of the Preface was fully intended to be an extra to explain for those curious why my intentions with the book and my arguments were revised over the course of four years as I did more research. Much of the contents in the Preface is essentially re-stated in both the concluding portions on the section of Islam and the conclusion of the book itself so you aren’t missing much of anything. I had actually made the second-half of the Preface on a whim.

The spacing differences are due to my foolishness at not having checked how much spacing was required for a book and my fears of having to split the physical edition into two books. Fortunately, that never happened as I re-checked Amazon’s guidelines and found I could fit all the necessary contents that I needed into one neat package. I got rid of the Section Breaks for each chapter in the physical edition as they weren’t necessary and took up too much space; they were exclusively intended for the Kindle edition regardless. Furthermore, I cut some of the “For Reference” in the Bibliography that was fully quoted in the actual book as it seemed like an extra that didn’t need to be there. As such, the Physical edition has fewer words and less branched out pages within.

Now for the most perplexing aspect; why is the physical edition priced $43.55 while the Kindle edition is only $9.99? Well, it’s honestly due to adjusting for the difference in pricing policies between the Kindle and Physical editions on Amazon’s Self-Publish policy.

You see, Amazon gives authors 70% of the royalties for any Kindle book priced between $2.99 and $9.99, everything below and above that is a return of 30% royalties. So, if I priced the Kindle edition far above $9.99 then I would make far less money in return.

For the physical edition, its partly my own fault because Amazon subtracts the money that you make from royalties per page count used. So, I lose over $10 from the physical edition and since I obviously want both Kindle and Physical editions to help make a living for me, then I have to increase the price to $43.55 with the intended return from the 60% earned from royalties.

I’d like to remind people that this is actually a really good deal because I’d still be making more of a return from my hard work of 4 years than with Traditional publishing where authors make only around 50 cents per book sale at best.

Finally, if you’re daunted by the page lengths, please don’t be! Think of it as a really good deal on 6-7 books all in one neat package since each section is a typical book length, so you’re definitely getting more bang for your buck. What matters is the value that you get from the purchase and I’m confident in saying that the vast majority will definitely get a massive return in value from buying my book, Faith in Doubt.

https://www.amazon.com/dp/1733901701

BBC Officially Supports Al Qaeda on the issue of Kashmir

This past week, BBC released a pro-Al Qaeda video in support of the terrorist group including protests with flags from other terrorist groups like ISIS. Click “cc” on the Sham Sharma video for a translation to find out more. The video was in support of a pro-Al Qaeda protest advocating for violence. BBC has officially made their Pro-Al Qaeda position known to all now.

Faith in Doubt is now #1 on new releases for Agnosticism on Amazon

I’m not quite sure how it happened, but after just 1 book sale according to the statistics, Amazon has placed Faith in Doubt as the #1 seller for New Releases on Agnosticism for the moment. This might be due to how Amazon’s sales rankings sometimes take 48 hours to update old information, but I saw a sale approximately 2-3 hours after a friend informed me that they purchased a copy, so I’m confused. I would have thought most number one sales were selling more than 50 or so copies, but my book is now number 1 for new releases in Agnosticism, which is one of its audiences.

The Kindle Version of my book, Faith in Doubt, Is Live!

 

For some reason, the physical version is still “in review” and it could take 3 days for Amazon to make a decision. But, since the Kindle version is now live, I don’t think I have to worry about the contents being an issue. If anyone has a Kindle, it’s now available!

If you feel skeptical about it, it is available on KDP Select for people who are subscribed to that.

Progress Note: Finite Incantatem

Note: ALL FINISHED! I’ve sent it to Amazon for review.

I’ve finally finished my book, Faith In Doubt: Do You Question Your Faith?

I completed the penultimate chapter earlier today and with that I’ve completed everything I needed to write down. I had spend almost an hour with Amazon’s Physical self-publishing preview checker, I had pre-prepared and made sure to change any Georgia font, but for some reason some portions with Helvetica font kept showing up, even though I had thought I changed it. Evidently, Microsoft Word 2008 changes the font when loading up documents slowly. The preview system kept showing one issue that needed fixing each time instead of all of them. Eventually, I could click approve and made sure to check over everything before doing so. I’m still in a state of disbelief that this journey may finally be over.

There’s been an issue with pricing that came-up that I hadn’t expected at all. But I’ll wait to go into details if Amazon approves both the Kindle and Physical edition that I’ve sent. I’m worried that the Political Correctness climate and the ridiculous difference in pricing between the Kindle and Physical copy could cause them to reject them, but Amazon is open enough towards Free Speech to allow Nazi books so I’m hopeful. I really have to commend them for sticking to Free Speech as much as possible unlike other companies. Their only sticking point is not having any hateful content in the description and obviously not advocating for violence, which is reasonable since they are a private company that sells merchandise and can’t have that representing them.

I’m hoping there’s no issues. I’m pretty sure that, should I see both versions available, it’ll just be pure giddiness at finally having one of my personal dreams turned into a reality thanks to my dedication over the years. I’m cautiously excited, but if its self-published then I can start leaping for joy.

Overall, this has been quite the journey. Below is the finalized version of the Table of Contents:

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Islamophobia Doesn’t Exist and Neither Does Islamic Culture

For those who have been waiting patiently for me to finish writing my book, I’m sure it has crossed your mind that I could be lying or I could be too nice to Islam due to my arguments distinguishing Anti-Muslim bigotry from criticism of Islam. Moreover, some of you might think there’s not much I can offer compared to harsh critics like Apostate Prophet (who admittedly did influence a portion of my writings in the book I am working on and I happily credit him in the book itself), but I want to put any of those potential concerns aside as unambiguously as possible.

The portion below is quite honestly just one small speck of content on what to expect from my upcoming book and the criticism of religions therein. I focus on the structure, assumptions, and claims of each particular Major Religion in Part II of the book to analyze, critique, and repudiate them. As shown before in a previous blog post, I devote six chapters to Islam.

This’ll be the last of my shared excerpts from Faith in Doubt and I hope it generates enough interest. This particular set of information I shared on r/Islam after they deleted my sharing of the Apostate Prophet debunking the scientific miracles of the Quran topic. After leaving this for awhile since I cited Islamic sources, the Moderators of r/Islam quickly removed it in less than a day.  I shared it on r/exmuslim and found myself unable to have my topics and posts appear on their subreddit since then, so evidently this was too much for even r/exmuslim since I seem to have been shadowbanned by them. I messaged the Moderators and never got a response back. Furthermore, let this one small speck from my upcoming book serve as an explanation for why I don’t believe Islam can call itself a culture and why Islamophobia is a stupid term.

Oh, and the “citations” at the bottom are due to how WordPress blogging configures citations and isn’t related to the book. The Works Cited page consists only of a small portion of the chapter that I’m taking this excerpt from.

For those curious and who may want to check the previous content from my book which I’ve already shared:

The earliest version of Chapter 1  (This chapter has been heavily modified in the final version and this sample no longer reflects the current version).

Sample Chapter 6 of Faith in Doubt (This has been somewhat modified and broken into two chapters in the final version).

The following is the final excerpt that I’ll share from my own soon-to-be finished book, Faith in Doubt, written under my pseudonym Jarin Jove:

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Progress Note: Death in the Family, Burnout, and Striving Onward

As you’ll recall, I foolishly anticipated that I’d probably be done by last month. That didn’t happen. I had hoped for my next update to be the good news of sending my book for self-publishing and delayed writing this in the hopes of doing just that, but . . . I can’t and I feel I owe people who are wondering why I just suddenly became silent an explanation and clarification.

Last month on the 8th, my grandfather passed away. This would now be my second grandfather to do so. So, I’ve now lost both my grandparents on my mother’s side and my grandfather on my father’s side. My mother was a wreck and I went through a mild depression. The death wasn’t unexpected, due to his failing health for years, and he lived a good, long life up to age 94 but it takes awhile to sink in. I had to suddenly do all the religious customs because doing otherwise is seen as disrespectful to my grandfather’s memory and my mother was already in shambles so I didn’t want to add to her grief. My mother was even more of a wreck at the actual funeral. My siblings and I did the best we could to comfort her. To put it mildly, it was emotionally exhausting from beginning to end and there was just no time for me to even put any thought into writing when that was going on. A bit before this happened, a close friend told me that he was going to need surgery to remove half his thyroid because it may have cancer and had grown too big regardless. He had the surgery yesterday and got back to me last night; they still may need to do a second surgery in case the thyroid they removed is found to have cancer in it. Admittedly, I don’t understand the exact process well enough, but I was feeling paranoid that he could also die on me, even if I knew such paranoia was only due to emotional grief likely influenced by my grandfather passing away. Yet another close friend is in dire economic straits and I’m concerned, but I’ll spare the details of that one.

For most of last month, I tried writing, I felt pissed off at myself for failing yet another deadline after failing the one in June, but I just couldn’t. My family took a 10-day trip, which I refused to go along with, and I just felt far too exhausted emotionally and physically to do much of anything. I felt emotional and physical exhaustion because I had been so demanding of myself to finish on time, but it felt like I just collapsed inward from emotional exhaustion due to all these competing factors and my own ire at myself. I had to focus on self-care, because everything was tiring me out. I felt horrible because it seemed at one point like I was making excuses, but the more rational part of my brain shut that thought down by repudiating it with the argument that such a sentiment was mere self-loathing and demanded I focus on my emotional health instead of being stuck with highly flawed reasoning. I had to take a break for those ten days and just watch some anime, listen to music, and read something unrelated to the topics I’d been writing about to calm myself. It was wrong for me to feel self-contempt for doing this, I had to remind myself of that and remember that I’m just a fallible human being who makes mistakes. Therefore, falling short sometimes, even for prolonged periods in this case due to the circumstances, is okay.

I became preoccupied with rather silly quibbles online too. I sometimes don’t know what the most effective way to change people’s minds is and so I try to push back against many Christian and Islamic apologists online. I try to push back against Hindus who express falsehoods, anti-Muslim bigotry, or nonsensical beliefs too. I’m honestly feeling cynical about the future of Hinduism. At this point, they’re adapting and becoming more like the Abrahamic faiths in their views of women’s sexuality, their views on blasphemy (borrowing, of all things, “phobia” of Hinduism which just reeks of desperation for Abrahamic values similar to Islam’s idiotic Islamophobia), and worst of all, proselytizing Ex-Muslims online similar to born-again Christians. I’ve seen many denounce atheism now despite the fact Hinduism literally created atheism from an anti-theist perspective in 600 BCE. The earliest atheists were from Sanatana Dharma including the Vedic branch of Hinduism and yet many Hindus of India reject this entirely in order to be more “respectable” to the cult of death of Abrahamic theology.

Nevertheless, I did return to writing shortly after and I’ve finished yet another chapter but . . . well, I expected to write 15-20 pages and found it to be 63 pages. This means I’m only left with 6 pages to keep to the limit of 828 pages for the physical edition of Amazon’s Self-Publishing Content guidelines. As such, I will regrettably have to remove a large portion of the Preface from the physical version because I need space for the final chapter that needs to be written. I’ve already written the conclusion, I just need to write the penultimate chapter and I should be finished. I’m hoping there’ll be no more time lapsed in finishing. It’s amazing how quickly an entire month’s worth of time is consumed and spent. I decided to take yesterday and today off to keep myself from burnout again. I’ve found that paradoxically giving myself a break each hour has made me more productive. It’s similar to the pomodoro technique, but with more time working. I’ll rest easy for a few days and then work to finish it. I strive onwards for completion of this project, it is the hardest project I’ve ever undertaken in my life, and it feels very satisfying.

Distancing Myself from Supporting Western Ex-Muslims

“Fire is hot, water cold,
refreshingly cool is the breeze of morning;
By whom came this variety?
They were born of their own nature.

This also has been said by Brhaspati:
There is no heaven, no final liberation,
nor any soul in another world,
Nor do the actions of the four castes,
orders, or priesthoods produce any real effect.

If a beast slain as an offering to the dead
will itself go to heaven,
why does the sacrificer not straightway offer his father?

If offerings to the dead produce gratification
to those who have reached the land of the dead,
why the need to set out provisions
for travelers starting on this journey?
If our offering sacrifices here gratify beings in heaven,
why not make food offerings down below
to gratify those standing on housetops?

While life remains, let a man live happily,
let him feed on butter though he runs in debt;
When once the body becomes ashes,
how can it ever return again?

If he who departs from the body goes to another world,
why does he not come back again,
restless for love of his kinfolk?
It is only as a means of livelihood
that brahmins have established here
abundant ceremonies for the dead—
there is no other fruit anywhere.” = Charvaka Philosophy of Sanatana Dharma.

I really am loathe to say this, but I feel I should distance myself from Ex-Muslims of the West for a bit. Now, I don’t mean to say that I’m going to ignore them or not fund them in the future for human rights causes, but the charm and euphoria of their social movement’s advancements on the grounds of Enlightenment values and Human Rights has not been consistent with their behavior and I have to also accept the fact that it really is my own fault and not theirs that I am distancing myself. I don’t put any blame on them; it was my own gullibility – probably inherited from my parents – that led me to take certain statements they made in the normalizing dissent tour to heart which I realize now was more talk than action. Please note that this doesn’t mean that I don’t support them or that I am calling them liars. I think it is more that . . . I had loftier expectations and wrongfully applied it to their social movement. It was not fair for me to do that to them. They don’t live to serve my expectations; they have their own goals. My own support for them has led me to conclude several dreadful facts. It is difficult to humanize Muslims and it is all their own fault; Ex-Muslims have triple the work ahead of them when trying to keep the humanizing aspect of their narrative since they obviously don’t want their own families to be harmed out of genuine compassion for Muslims. The recent case with China was just a string in a long line of examples of Muslims dehumanizing themselves on a global scale; 22 Countries opposed China’s concentration camps on Uyghur Muslims. Nearly all Western, except I think Turkey was among them. 33 supported China’s concentration camps and called it a benevolent humanitarian act. Nearly all of the countries supporting China’s concentration camps are Islamic countries. I really wanted so badly to believe that Ex-Muslims of the West arguing that dialogue is effective would be beneficial in changing the minds of Muslims in the West. Usually, unfortunately, the conversation from my own experience turns to why they think it is moral for adult men to have sex with 9-year olds because the Pedophile Prophet of Islam did it. To be fair, many who are confronted with the info I give them do almost immediately change their mind, so I guess they’re just not as vivid in my memory as the very arrogant ones who honestly believe their death cult is the truth of the universe. But still, there’s enough that it’s doubtful dialogue can make any meaningful headway to changing minds for a long-term game if people continue to ask neutral or softer questions. However, there is a pernicious reason within the Western Ex-Muslim crowd for why their movement against Islamism might honestly fail, even in the West but almost definitely globally except for people who are specifically seeking to leave foreign countries for their own safety.

This is probably going to be one of my harshest criticisms. I’m not even sure if I should broach it, to be honest. But, I am under the opinion, and I hope that I am wrong, that the Ex-Muslim movement is either in the process of failing or is spectacularly failing against Islamism and that, if anything, Islamism has either won or is in the process of winning. Moreover, it is entirely the fault of Western Ex-Muslims albeit with the exception of Ridvan Aydemir, the Apostate Prophet. He’s had the biggest impact on changing minds and I think I know why. Other Western Ex-Muslims aren’t as prominent and don’t make as much of an impact at all for a few compelling reasons.

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